Moms Starting A New Path
Many times in life we do not know when our life is going to change suddenly and will be so different. I think sometimes that is better. I am sitting here knowing nothing will ever be like today again and that next summer my life will look completely different than it has the last 25 summers. This is because I am a mom with all my kids on the brink of being gone. I will be starting again to build a life.
I have known this was coming and can’t complain ~ and I am not, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. I have been lucky. My oldest is a teacher and her and her husband come home to spend most of the summer with us. My youngest is a high school senior with plans to go off to the Army Band and to college ~ oh yes and to come home as little as possible. One of my middle kids is looking for his dream job and the other off to start a life with hers.
Now don’t get me wrong, I have learned through the college years that I enjoy a little peace and having nothing to do. I do look forward to having time with my husband to do things that weren’t even thoughts when the kids were younger. However, I also am fearful of long periods without them, let alone not knowing when they will be at the dinner table together.
So here I am with a foot on each path. Looking forward to a new chance to start something just for myself and explore new opportunities. As I take that step I am pulled back by memories and fear and just the love of having my kids together loudly talking and laughing.